Miss Tang got me thinking once,

If everything is fighting to be different,
wouldn't that very struggle make us all the same?

Indeed, not about to be homeogenised by the rest. It aint easy to stay constant (and afloat amongst all the angst) but it is an important step in maintaining sanity... I mean, smiles doesn't come cheap, it really doesn't. It takes much self control, much awareness, an ability to let things go and most importantly, a powerful capacity to SWALLOW all shit. Yes, instead of 'dont cry out loud' we have 'dont scream out loud'...'just keep it inside'. This is by no attempt escapism, no no. This is a courageous act of giving and temperament control. A limitation of discourse with the external resulting in an exponential outburst of conversation with the inside, the self, he spirit. I mean, why get angered when anger does no good... Do not be mistaken, this is not to say that I do not get angered, I do, and it is surprisingly common. I get annoyed at the simpliest, most minimalistic mistakes or slowness. Such lack of conviction. I do, and lack of personality or logic is fully distasteful indeed. However, as logical human beings, we should constantly attack our method of resolution. How we handle issues and how much it actually works.
And yes, this is Chin's lesson on anger management.

haha...what a joke.

Alright, on another note, some of my coursemates will be heading overseas for whatever they do overseas. So I guess there will be less of us at hellhole. I mean, we really need to stick together now, how else can we survive?

But, if we all struggle to be different....
However, we cannot merely become one, be a communal entity.
That is too much of an insult given that I wouldn't want to associated with a certain few people...

So how?!
How?!

Suck thumb, carry on.
Such is life eh? Many a times, things don't go our way.
So control our emotions when things go astray,
no screams of anger, no shouts of annoyance.

Breathe,
breathe.
Clear your head....
I swear I can survive............














with a couple more shots of volka please.


God, have mercy on us, the God-fearing...