hear me.
Paul Coelho said,
"Tell your heart that the fae of suffering is worse than the suffering itself" and
"When I have been truely searching for my treasure, every day has been luminous, becauce I've known that every hour was part of the dream that I would find it".
Paul Coelho's "The Alchemist' is really really well done. and Very thought provoking.
He is an advocate for the 'personal legend' where there is a calling for everyone on earth because the hand that wrote these stories are actively creating a meaning in our lives.
a calling indeed.
sometimes, I wonder if what Coelho said came from personal experience or mere fabrication. i do hope it originated from some tangible source of inspiration.
and so, hat struck me most was the claim that when one truely desire his personal legend, all 'the world will conspire in favor of that goal'. BUT! But he also said that before one reaches his goal, The Hands will test everything we've learnt so that we become not only bearers of our personal legend, but also learned persons.
and at this point of time, i would like to request that The Hands hear my cries. For once, I am truely blinded my the obstacles.
truely.
and all along, i've held strong to my belief that I will one daystand infront of a classroom of students. and with so much conviction, deliver my (pre-planned, ofcause) lesson. yes, to many it doesnt seem like much of an ambition, nor does it sound very farfetched... but, it seems like there is always a 'but', there is a catch...
the teaching career in Singapore doesnt get much prestige because the professional advancement isnt too great. and unless i'm a teacher scholar, i wont be able to rapidly sail through the ranks... yes i know i sound all bitchy and annoying now, but see, though i want to start of as a classroom teacher, my personal legend doesnt end there. transmutation, trans, transformation...all forms a collective in the search of our personal legend. and in this case, i would like to one day move to educational management... from making micro-changes in a classroom to making macro-changes in the nation.
i bloody know i can.
But somehow PSC refusesto send me a reply... ok they sord of did, they sent (quite some people i suppose) an invitation to a psc scholar sharing which i am sure to go.. but, this is the 4th week after i've successfully submitted all my documents requires for the application process. and no news! they are suppose to give us, hopefuls, an reply within three weeks! three weeks! yay or nay, they will send us an update by the third week!!! i've emailed PSC and somehow, they seem to not know that tis the 4th week...
and i wait.
i guess the world isnt cconspiring (not fully) for me to achieve my persona legend isit.
and this is not only for myself..this is for all my future students (and many of my college friends vowed to send their kids to my institution in the future), my future employers, my future fellow co-workers and for myself! How can they reject someone so willing to servethe government and do his part (and more!) in the social sector of public service?!?!?!
breathe.
breathe.
I guess eveything is connected by a silver thread. And i will have to survive this challenge dont i... i guess i can...
but even the young man in The Alchemist received wisdom and advice from learned, wise people.... where is my guide? where is my silver star as i look for my oasis?!
For many, the most is learn out of the journey and not the destination.... but for just as many, the search ends at the journeying.
because it is so tiring to hope, to constantly dream and to hold on to that passion to realise the personal legend. and this time, i'm really worn out.
have You heard my cries?
"Tell your heart that the fae of suffering is worse than the suffering itself" and
"When I have been truely searching for my treasure, every day has been luminous, becauce I've known that every hour was part of the dream that I would find it".
Paul Coelho's "The Alchemist' is really really well done. and Very thought provoking.
He is an advocate for the 'personal legend' where there is a calling for everyone on earth because the hand that wrote these stories are actively creating a meaning in our lives.
a calling indeed.
sometimes, I wonder if what Coelho said came from personal experience or mere fabrication. i do hope it originated from some tangible source of inspiration.
and so, hat struck me most was the claim that when one truely desire his personal legend, all 'the world will conspire in favor of that goal'. BUT! But he also said that before one reaches his goal, The Hands will test everything we've learnt so that we become not only bearers of our personal legend, but also learned persons.
and at this point of time, i would like to request that The Hands hear my cries. For once, I am truely blinded my the obstacles.
truely.
and all along, i've held strong to my belief that I will one daystand infront of a classroom of students. and with so much conviction, deliver my (pre-planned, ofcause) lesson. yes, to many it doesnt seem like much of an ambition, nor does it sound very farfetched... but, it seems like there is always a 'but', there is a catch...
the teaching career in Singapore doesnt get much prestige because the professional advancement isnt too great. and unless i'm a teacher scholar, i wont be able to rapidly sail through the ranks... yes i know i sound all bitchy and annoying now, but see, though i want to start of as a classroom teacher, my personal legend doesnt end there. transmutation, trans, transformation...all forms a collective in the search of our personal legend. and in this case, i would like to one day move to educational management... from making micro-changes in a classroom to making macro-changes in the nation.
i bloody know i can.
But somehow PSC refusesto send me a reply... ok they sord of did, they sent (quite some people i suppose) an invitation to a psc scholar sharing which i am sure to go.. but, this is the 4th week after i've successfully submitted all my documents requires for the application process. and no news! they are suppose to give us, hopefuls, an reply within three weeks! three weeks! yay or nay, they will send us an update by the third week!!! i've emailed PSC and somehow, they seem to not know that tis the 4th week...
and i wait.
i guess the world isnt cconspiring (not fully) for me to achieve my persona legend isit.
and this is not only for myself..this is for all my future students (and many of my college friends vowed to send their kids to my institution in the future), my future employers, my future fellow co-workers and for myself! How can they reject someone so willing to servethe government and do his part (and more!) in the social sector of public service?!?!?!
breathe.
breathe.
I guess eveything is connected by a silver thread. And i will have to survive this challenge dont i... i guess i can...
but even the young man in The Alchemist received wisdom and advice from learned, wise people.... where is my guide? where is my silver star as i look for my oasis?!
For many, the most is learn out of the journey and not the destination.... but for just as many, the search ends at the journeying.
because it is so tiring to hope, to constantly dream and to hold on to that passion to realise the personal legend. and this time, i'm really worn out.
have You heard my cries?
